be the contradiction.

it is right to be a contradiction.  to have the loftiest of goals and the furthest of pipe dreams.  we are not made to live inside a pigeon hole, to only like certain things and never stray from our upbringing or what is expected of us.  it is ok to like white walls with mismatched rugs even though you were raised in a dark home with french antiques.  we are living, walking, breathing collections of everything we have ever seen, everyone we have ever known, every land we have ever traveled.

i will not be brought down by the expectations of others.  i will not be flouted by what you think of me.  i will continue to be me, and free, and happy, and dreaming.  i will do what i want today and change my mind tomorrow.  you will not take any part of me, because you don’t deserve it.  and if you did, you wouldn’t judge or lie or challenge.  you would support my soul in any shape it decides to fly.

so this is goodbye to you, and hello to me.

california style

southern california is one of the greatest loves of my life.  i’ve mentioned it before but lately it’s all that has been on my mind.  my father is from california, my parents met and fell in love in california, my grandparents lived almost their entire lives in california.  some of my favorite, happiest memories are in/of california.  and i’ve set my sights on california.

i’ve threatened it for years – packing my bags and heading to the west, never to return.  amid cries from my parents that it is too far away, that i won’t be happy, that it is too shallow, that it isn’t what it used to be, i have put my dreams on the back burner.  but now i’m at the precipice of change in my life.  i’m at the edge of the rest of my life.  i’m ready to make a decision and really let myself be free, doing and seeing what i want, being who i want.  not that i’m not already but you know what i mean…

so i’ve made a decision.  at this time next year, i will be there.  maybe it’s la, san diego, laguna, the side of the road, i’m not sure.  but i will be there.  and for now, here’s what’s inspiring me to keep working towards my dreams.

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couldn’t resist throwing in a little stevie 😉

images from pinterest (check me out @babybohemian) and free people

loving craving wishing waiting: june 9th

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it’s been a while since i did one of these, but they are one of my favorite post styles that i do. they just encapsulate everything i’m feeling at any particular moment, and they are really fun to look back on as well //

loving:

getting up early – dressing up for work – reconnecting with summer friends – my recent new york purchases – sf girl by bay blog

craving:

a sweaty yoga session – a long beach day – a swim in the ocean

wishing:

i was already tan – for salty skin

waiting:

for my day off on saturday – for my next yoga class – for summer to be in full gear

image via sf girl by bay

soft focus

early, grey mornings were made for daydreams.  hot coffee, snuggling back into bed, knowing you have a couple hours before you really have to start the day.  a candle or two.  or three, if you’re like me.

in your daydreams, what does your day look like?  mine looks like these photos.  soft focus, light colors, sunsets and sunrises.  sand under my feet and sunkissed shoulders.  my favorite jeans, my worn-in birks, a cold beer in hand.

summer is around the corner, as is the reality of my daydreams.  it’s not here yet, but it’s on it’s way.  and isn’t that a lovely thought?  i hope all of your daydreams come true.  maybe it won’t be today, or tomorrow, or next week.  but soon.  they are on their way, i promise.
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images via fp, pinterest, urban outfitters