thoughts on: appreciating the past

i knew i wanted to write something today, but wasn’t feeling inspired by anything.¬† as luck would have it, the text chain with my mom and sisters provided something for me to muse on.bb thoughts on the pastmy mom was sending us baby pictures to see how my niece compares to us, when she sent us one from my sister’s 8th grade graduation.¬† she had dyed hair (boy was she in trouble) but otherwise looks adorably adorable.¬† her reaction?¬† the expected “yikes.”¬† my response?¬† enjoy and appreciate the past.

easier said than done, for sure.¬† but why?¬† why is it so hard to appreciate all the mistakes we made, all the cringe-y moments that we hate to think back on?¬† we all have those.¬† if you don’t, you aren’t a person.¬† and i truly mean that.¬† of course we look back and have second hand embarrassment for how we looked or what we said.¬† we have regrets, maybe small ones if you’re lucky, but regrets all the same.

without the trials and tribulations of life, we wouldn’t be where we are today.¬† i very firmly believe that.¬† and i don’t mean that we have to have had the fight of our lives.¬† the everyday mistakes that we make change us for the better.¬† we learn and we grow from everything we do, good and bad.¬† everything we experience, witness, hear, understand, empathize with, sympathize with.¬† we are ever-evolving organisms that can adapt to any sort of adversity.¬† especially the adversity within ourselves.

i guess my point here is not to shun the past.  not to be ashamed of silly outfits, weird hair-dos (i use to wear an insanely big bun smack dab on the top of my head Рmuch to the enjoyment of my less than kind peers), stupid comments, tears shed in public places.  all of these factors result in the magical souls that we are today.  the past is there for a reason, to remind us of where we come from and why we are who we are.  and that, i think, is worth cherishing.

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daily creativity with traveler’s notebook

as you may or may not know, i used to manage a small stationery and custom invitation store.  stationery and school supplies have always been a huge passion of mine, but i never before realized that there is an entire community that exists and thrives with these passions at the center of it.  when i took that job, it was more for management and marketing experience, but it transformed into a greater appreciation for stationery items and paper goods, and the art, dedication, and flair behind them.  though i no longer work at this store, the world of paper will always be very near and dear to my heart and i greatly enjoy finding new brands and interesting products. 

i recently got it into my head that i would like to purchase a traveler’s notebook.  these notebooks are essentially leather covers that you can completely customize inside.  you can have a number of notebooks, agendas, and/or folders inside at one time, and use the notebook for whatever purpose feels right.  the size of the notebook is unique in that it is relatively skinny and long, but this makes it perfect for writing and keeping organized.  i finally purchased my own a few weeks ago, and decided on the dark brown leather cover.  from my research, this looks the best suited to aging and wear and tear.bb tn1.PNG i did a ton of research on these notebooks before i decided to make the investment.  one of the best things that came out of my research was the discovery of an online (and brick and mortar if you live in california) shop called baum-kuchen, and the owner, wakako.  i have become absolutely entranced with this shop and the accompanying blog.  wakako is such a beautifully creative person that shares her love of the analogue life everyday through her shop, blog, and instagram.  i love following her and getting inspiration for my own creative, analogue journey.  she often reminds me that nothing has to be perfect; life is about creating color and connections, and exhibiting your happiness in whatever way you can.  for me, it is definitely on paper Рthrough words, lists, ideas, and inspirations.  i do that here with my blog, but i also do it in my real life.  i take pictures, save things, buy things that feel special and important to me Рand now i have a place to keep all of these artifacts in my traveler’s notebook.

i have especially enjoyed learning more about japanese culture through my research into traveler‚Äôs notebooks. ¬†paper products are very important and treasured there, and there are a plethora of companies coming out of japan that have caught my eye, including traveler‚Äôs company (formerly midori) and¬†the superior labor.bb tn2.PNG i absolutely adored using my traveler’s notebook for the first time on my trip to california.¬† i always collect so many artifacts while traveling – receipts, business cards, stickers, postcards, etc. – and now i have a place to store and expand on these little items.¬† i also kept daily logs of what i did and where i went, the best parts of the day, silly quotes and reminders of things that were discussed and experienced, etc… i cannot wait for more adventures with my traveler’s notebook, and to expand on what exactly my style will be.

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january 2, 2018

sometimes only coming home has the power to heal all our wounds.

when i left my apartment on december 14, 2017, my heart was raw and my eyes swollen from the previous night’s tears.¬† ending relationships is always hard, but ending one that you weren’t even able to fully begin is harder.

through three weeks with my two sisters, two parents, two brothers-in-law, and one baby niece, my empty heart has healed.  not completely, but enough.  i have laughed until i cried, danced around the kitchen, and escaped to my air mattress for naps and brief moments of peace.  i have come back to life.  i have moved from feeling my emotions so palpably to pushing them to the back of my mind for later contemplation.  they are still there, but more silenced than i was capable of achieving on my own.

coming home for the holidays is never easy once you’ve grown up and moved away, but there are so many reasons to return: being near the people that continue to raise and teach you, silly but timeless traditions, and spending time in your jammies sitting on the living room floor.

i hope your holidays provided you with peace, comfort, and wisdom, in whatever way you needed.

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january 2, 2018

resolutions for my 25th year

my birthday, fortunately and unfortunately, is in the first week of the new year.¬† while i always come up with new year’s resolutions – and pretty immediately disregard them – this year i’m making resolutions for my new year.¬† life is pretty hectic and full of change these days, so with these resolutions i’m really looking to ground myself, stick to my routines, and work hard to keep working hard.bb resolutions.JPG// be kind and gentle to myself // truth be told i am absolutely horrible at this, as most of us are.¬† i think i’ve mentioned this before, but there’s a line that lena dunham¬†mentions at the end of the first season of¬†girls, along the lines of “you could never hate me more than i hate myself, or say worse things than i say to myself.”¬† and i feel this.¬† too much.¬† as humans we are our own harshest critics, but if i can’t treat myself kindly and with gentleness and love, how can i expect others to?¬† this is a concept that i’ve been working on for years after my sweet therapist flat out told me to do so in those exact words.¬† i will keep trying, because i deserve it.

// weekend workouts // i’m sorry to mention a workout resolution, but it’s needed!¬† starting january 8th, i am student teaching full time, 5 days a week.¬† so with the 8+ hour school day and my 2+ hour commute, i know there is no way i will be working out through the week.¬† so weekends are my goal.¬† and that’s just two days – even i can manage that!¬† i’m desperate to get back into my yoga practice and even running.¬† i go in and out with my workout habits but i am actually looking forward to taking care of myself in this way again.¬† are you sensing a theme here?

// become a more experimental cook // or a cook at all!¬† i’m so bad with meal planning and prep, but i really really want to get better at it.¬† i’m going to try to be more forward-thinking when i go to the grocery store and have some go-to meals that i can make without too much effort.¬† actually, i make a great work lunch, but it’s the dinners that i struggle with.¬† it’s a serious problem when cereal is your favorite food!

// produce less waste // this is a really important one for me.¬† i’m good about carrying a water bottle and coffee thermos (this is the best one i’ve found) with me all the time, but i have other goals for my waste production.¬† some of them include: stop using cotton pads in my skincare routine (i’ve been using my hands for my witch hazel but still use cotton for makeup removal), using rags for cleaning instead of paper towels, using more reusable containers for work lunches (i’m looking at purchasing some lunchbots stainless containers), and making use of the bulk section at my grocery store and health food store.¬† i think these are super easy changes and i am looking forward to making them – now that’s the mark of a good resolution!

// be ok when i slip up // i say this in regards to these resolutions and so many other areas of my life.¬† like i said earlier, i can be so hard on myself, and as i am entering student teaching i already fear the daily mistakes i am going to make.¬† i am going to try my darnedest to accept my failures and respond to them accordingly, without getting upset or looking down on myself.¬† this is probably the hardest resolution i am going to work on, but it’s an important one.

do you have any resolutions for your new year?  happy happy and fresh starts to all!

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a note to my neighbor

i don’t like you.

i don’t like that i have to listen to you have sex at bizarre hours (6 am?!).¬† i don’t like that i have to listen to your music thumping.¬† i don’t like that i have to walk by your gross trash and the stains outside your door.¬† i don’t like that whatever you cook makes my bathroom smell.

i don’t like that i have to listen to you at all moments of the day and night.¬† i don’t like that you started banging on the wall when i tried to hammer a nail for 1 minute at 8:45 pm.¬† 1 minute at a reasonable hour on a wall that we don’t share.¬† how do you have the nerve?

i don’t like that you are inconsiderate.¬† i don’t like that i am patient and never make my annoyance known.¬† i don’t like that you have no patience of your own.¬† i don’t like that you live next to me.¬† i hope you move far, far away.

i don’t like you.

Рwell that was a good venting session.  have a great weekend, bohemians!

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the baby bohemian approach to feeling better

you might be sensing a bit of a theme here on baby bohemian these days – your girl is feeling low. ¬†like i said in this post, it’s just something that happens to me from time to time and i’m pretty good at self-soothing and letting myself revel in and then break free of the funk. ¬†besides lounging around and binging on books/movies/tv/youtube videos, i also find it extremely helpful to get out and get active. ¬†so here’s a real life account of how i made myself feel better last weekend. ¬†side note, all of my friends happened to be busy or away this particular weekend, so that’s why it was a very solitary one. ¬†usually i recommend dinner and/or drinks with friends; that almost always cheers me right up.Screen Shot 2017-09-08 at 10.13.50 AM.png1 // work up a sweat. ¬†i can hear my mother now: you know you always feel better after you work out! ¬†eye rolls aside, this advice is absolutely true. ¬†even though i don’t always feel like endorphins work on me (anyone else feel worse about yourself after working out?!), when i’m feeling sad this really is the best pick me up. ¬†going to yoga class, running outside, or going to the gym is a quick fix that gets me dressed, out of the house, and moving my tush. ¬†plus i consider sweating basically a good cry for the body, and sometimes that’s exactly what you need.

2 // explore your neighborhood. ¬†taking pictures is one of my favorite hobbies. ¬†many years ago i invested in a ridiculously expensive camera (i clearly thought i was going to be the next diane arbus but i don’t have to tell you how that turned out) and i make an effort to use it whenever i can. ¬†i have considered selling it many times, but it’s just one of those things that’s nice to have once you have it. ¬†last weekend i walked around my sweet college town, just taking pictures of flowers and houses and anything else that caught my eye. ¬†it’s such an easy activity and don’t feel like you need a big ass camera to do it. ¬†i usually have a disposable camera hanging around and quite honestly those usually end up being my favorite pictures anyway. ¬†you can even fit in the aforementioned exercise at the same time! ¬†bb bloomington1.jpgbb bloomington4.jpgbb bloomington6.jpgbb bloomington2.jpgbb bloomington3.jpgbb bloomington5.jpg3 // find a street fair or farmer’s market. ¬†this is a harder one, but now that fall is coming i bet it will be easier than you think. ¬†i attended both my weekly farmer’s market and a labor day street fair last weekend and both lifted my spirits tremendously. ¬†i got a gorgeous bouquet of end of summer/fall flowers and two bulbs of fresh garlic at the farmer’s market, along with a farmer’s market tote that is huge and perfect for grocery shopping. ¬†i popped the flowers in a mason jar and they have already lifted my spirits and had a couple recipes that i wanted to attempt last week, so the garlic is being put to good use! ¬†i also stumbled upon a labor day street/art fair in my town this weekend. ¬†there were probably 50 artisan booths from all over the country. ¬†i picked up a gorgeous handmade mug with the most stunning colors – the artisan is from maine and told me he mixes all of his colors by hand. ¬†i am a huge mug collector and i couldn’t resist this beauty. ¬†sometimes all you need is to make your morning coffee that little bit more special. ¬†bb instagram1.JPGbb sunny mug.jpg4 // get ready for the week. ¬†sometimes it’s as simple as getting ready for the days ahead. ¬†i was babysitting my sisters dog last week so i wasn’t been at my own home very much, but when i was i made the most of my time. ¬†from cleaning and organizing to laundry and dishes, i made my space clean and fresh for the coming week. ¬†i also did some meal planning (new for me, sadly!!) and completed a very thorough grocery shop. ¬†trust me, preparing your space, clothes, and fridge will clear your mind and make you feel more organized and ready to start a new week.

5 // prep blog posts. ¬†now you might not have a blog, but any kind of creative project will do here. ¬†writing posts and taking pictures is one of the greatest creative joys i have, so it’s (usually) relaxing to spend time doing so. ¬†it can be stressful and sometimes sets me off on the wrong path, but typically i can relish in the creativity even if i’m not feeling as inspired as a i’d like to be. ¬†even spending time on pinterest can give me the motivation to make a collage or set up a flat lay, and creativity just can’t be discounted in my opinion. ¬†bb instagram2.JPG

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the mean reds, again

sometimes blue just doesn’t cut it. ¬†perhaps one of my favorite parts of breakfast at tiffany’s, both the book and the movie, is holly’s spot-on description of the mean reds. ¬†not quite the blues, not quite anxiety, but something more…

the mean reds are described two ways. ¬†in the movie: “the blues are because you’re getting fat and maybe it’s been raining too long, you’re just sad that’s all. ¬†the mean reds are horrible. ¬†suddenly you’re afraid and you don’t know what you’re afraid of.”

in the book: “but, doc, i’m not fourteen anymore, and i’m not lulamae. ¬†but the terrible part is…i am. ¬†i’m still stealing turkey eggs and running through a briar patch. ¬†only now i call it having the mean reds.”bb mean reds.jpgi love truman capote so much perhaps because of this idea. ¬†this wholly accurate feeling that i could never before put words to. ¬†he encapsulates this feeling not just in the idea of the mean reds, but in holly herself. ¬†the feeling of spinning out of control, of feeling so far away from who you are but not really being that far at all. ¬†of searching and ignoring and looking for someone, anything to take the pain away.

of course i could tell you the clinical reasons for why i feel so scared and alone sometimes, but it’s more than that. ¬†it’s more than the descriptions on the doctor’s note…it’s the real cutting emotion that goes on inside my head, my heart, my soul. ¬†it’s that feeling of needing to cry for no apparent reason, of feeling so alone even in a room full of people you love. ¬†the sadness that only a long nap and a cup of tea can seem to help, but never cure.

i guess what i’m saying is that i accept this sadness that creeps up on me from time to time. ¬†i know how to handle it, make myself cozy and comforted, take it easy, and then wake up the next day feeling bright-eyed and bushy-tailed. ¬†but sometimes it’s hard to see the end, the light, the next day. ¬†it’s hard to feel so sad and scared. ¬†and when that happens, like it did today, i think about holly and truman and moon river. ¬†i light a candle, put on frank sinatra, and let myself cry.

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